"This will probably be our last weekend together for now," Sjaak pulled Lisa into his arms as they arrived home that evening. "Shall we spend this evening very very much together?"

Lisa chuckled. She longed for peace, and where better to find it than with Sjaak? She walked with him to their temporary bedroom, where Sjaak closed the curtains. Then he took her in his arms again and began to kiss and caress her, so tenderly, so gently, that Lisa immediately began to tingle all over her body. Before long, it turned to trembling.

Sjaak looked deep into her eyes. "May I peel you out of your clothes?"

Lisa nodded, she longed to be in his arms, to be loved by him. She let him have his way, feeling too unstable to help him undress.

Sjaak laid her on the bed, took off his jeans and sweater, but kept his underpants on for a while. Later, maybe...

With all the love he had for her, he began to stroke Lisa, kiss her, knead her gently. He noticed that she was enjoying herself, until the moment he caressed her breast, teasing her nipple a bit. Then suddenly she grabbed his wrist and pushed his hand away.

She looked at him with wide eyes and her voice sounded squeaky, "I'm so sorry Sjaak, but it's not working, I'm completely blocking. It feels terrible!"

Although it surprised Sjaak, he stroked her face soothingly. "Calm down, Liesel, it's all right. It's no big deal."

"Yes but, you were just so looking forward to making love," she moaned

"Then you understood that differently than I meant it. I wanted very much to be with you, remember? Yes, I wanted to love you, make love to you. But if it is necessary for you, to take it easy for a while, perhaps just to lie in each other's arms, then that is good. That's also very much together!"

"But how can that be? Sjaak, last time... it was so nice... and now I can't even handle the touch of my breast!"

 Lisa was stunned, didn't understand her own body at all anymore.

"Last time it went well, very well. And now it's going well too, just differently well. I suspect your process of healing has gone a layer deeper, and you're blocking because of it. I get that you don't like that, but it's really not a problem, I assure you."

Lisa leaned her head against Sjaak's chest and put an arm around him. He kissed her hair and stroked her back. He felt her slowly settle down completely.

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